| been a long ass time |
[05 Apr 2007|12:32pm] |
so it has been a while since i have been on this thing....so update time
graduating high school in a few months
18th bday is soon
working at sesame place this summer
going to college at University of the Arts (UArts)
so life is going pretty well....except for a few minor details but nothing i cant handle
ill be back soon
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[06 Dec 2005|04:36pm] |
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so i feel that everyone should come and see
SONGS FROM SHOWS YOU CAN'T DO IN HIGH SCHOOL 2
THURSDAY
FRIDAY
SATURDAY-if it snows friday there will be 2 shows saturday
DON'T BE A LOSER
BE THERE!!!!
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| well here goes another long rant |
[05 Oct 2005|03:34pm] |
well here it goes my parents are slowly getting back together.....I heard yesterday from my mom (who was telling the eye doctor) that they were planning on getting re-married next week.....and were planning on telling me when???? yeah I know a wee bit retarded if you ask me....anyway I found out this morning that my mom signed me and my dad up for some psycyatry thing (I know that’s not how you spell it but oh well) so yeah me and him haven’t really been on the best of terms lately.....he is always on my case about everything even little things if they are not done the right way it sends him over board.....and I just feel that no matter what I do I can never make him happy.....that there will always be something that I have done wrong that is bothering him....and that even if I have done everything in my power to try to make him happy he can and will always find something that he feels I have done wrong….there is just no pleasing him and I really hate that but yeah I told my mom all about that yesterday and I guess she told him cause he asked me this morning if I hated him….and I really don’t I just hate the way he treats me and how when no one is around every other word out of his mouth is fuck this and fuck that and how he claims to have changed but he is still the same old dad he was when he left…..and the past 2 years have been the hardest years of my life….I have been through so much and it’s all so hard to fight through….some days I just don’t want to get out of bed in the morning or even some days that I just don’t feel like living….life has become such a chore and I honestly don’t feel like dealing with it any more…..for the past year there has been a giant hole in my heart and I have been trying to mend it in every way possible but nothing seems to work…..I have every right to be mad……and I know I’m not crazy cause I bet if any of you had to go through what I have had to in the past 2 years then you would know how I feel……I try so hard not to let it all get to me but everything I try to do never works I just end up feeling worse and that’s not good for me….I guess this psycyatry thing could be an answer for my problems….but I just hate talking about my feeling to strangers…..which is why I don’t like this whole thing…..and the more I despise the whole thing the worse I feel and I just want to be the old Lenny…..back when life was care free and I didn’t have to try to please anyone…..and I know I have made my fair deal of mistakes and that I am far from perfect…..but I just want the world to stop asking so much of me……at least right now cause I can’t handle it……if not for all the things I love to do I don’t know how I would have survived…..dance work rebel yell tap ensemble and all my friends….are all saving graces to me and without them I don’t think I would have been able to get through anything I have been through…. I’m trying to keep this rant short but there is a lot I have to get out of my system……and for who ever is actually reading this if you have any advice for me I’m up for suggestions….cause I NEED my old life back….and soon!!!!
~Lenny~
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| i'm street legal |
[02 Sep 2005|11:03pm] |
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i am officially street legal....my permit is in my hands and it feels goooooood
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| POINTLESS ENTRY BUT HEYY WHY NOT |
[21 Jul 2005|12:56pm] |
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SO HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF-BLOOD PRINCE IS NOW ON THE LIST OF BOOKS I HAVE COMPLEATED........HOLY SHIT IT WAS AMAZING....SO MANY TWISTS AND SURPRISES.....NEXT BOOK SHALL BE AMAZING......OR IT DAMN WELL BETTER BE
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| new update |
[26 Jun 2005|12:46pm] |
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ok so here is the top news of my life......MY PARENTS ARE GETTING BACK TOGETHER......thats making me really happy......i have 2 awesome jobs and working all the time but it's all worth it.....i'm going to myrtal beach in a week.....that should be awesome.....now to the freaky part of this entry....last night i had this dream....i was with my ex girlfriend....(whos name i won't put but most of you know who she is) so we were both at the same graduation and we were talking and i apologised for being a complete and total ass hole to her and she forgave me and we got back together.....and i was holding her in my arms again and i got to kiss her once more....long story short it was a very strange dream and i realize what i did wrong and what a beautiful girl i lost.....and how even after 9 months i still have feelings for her....so if she happens to cross upon this entry.....i'm sorry...i really and truly am....i let you slip away and i shouldn't have.....you still mean sooo much to me and now i have to deal with the fact that i lost you.....but i don't know how else to say i'm sorry...i hope you can forgive me
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| yes i'm updating |
[29 Apr 2005|08:02pm] |
ok so as you can tell it's been a while since my last update....although i'm not sure why i am updating cause no one really reads or cares about my dull life.......but yes i'm still lost in a whirlwind of emotions and girls make my life incredibly hard but yet that has been happening for all of this year and it doesn't really have that much of an effect on me....but yeah i really don't like my life and i know it sounds really emo and what not and most people are probably oh god whats he complaining about now but life is a bitch and my life is not very interesting at all.....anyway aside from that things are ok i guess i still feel empty and alone but hey no one seems to care so what ev
~Lenny~
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| it finally happened |
[12 Feb 2005|08:42pm] |
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ok i went to the greatest sweet 16 last night.....i can't believe how much fun i had......i danced with a beautiful girl.....saw people i havn't seen in like forever.....danced with a beautiful girl.....oh yeah i said that already.....oh well....well its official....i have fallen for a beautiful girl named Jesse Decker.......i spent like the entire night with her last night.....her and i were out there on the dance floor going party harty.....it was amazing.....i'm so happy right now it's not even funny.....yeah this was a pointless entry but i figured i might as well post cause i havn't in like ages.....so thats about it
~Lenny~
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| the worst is over....or so i thought |
[12 Jan 2005|11:07pm] |
ok well it's been a while so here it goes..........today i found out i have the flu.....yippie for me no school for a few days but lots of make up work.....which should be loads of fun (if you hadn't realized the last part of that sentence was chock full of sarcasim) yeah and being sick and depressed gets you thinking so i wrote this and i hope you enjoy
you never know how much it hurts.......and it's always the same answer to the same question........and ya know what......it's cause of you that beat myself up at night......it's cause uf you that i am the way i am.......you and your excuses.....and your self concerned lies......THIS PUNCH IS FOR YOU.......and all the shit you put me through.......so this punch is for your bullshit.......and this one is for your petty lies..........and i'd rather put my self infront of a firing squad then deal with the pain i've suffered from you.....and i've kept my mouth shut and held it all inside but i think is's time you fucking heard whats coming out of my mouth.......i don't know why i waste my time on you.......i spend my life on people like you.....and ya know what i'm tired of it....and now i'ts all about to blow up in your face.......THIS PUNCH IS FOR YOU!!!!!!!!!
~JeZuS~
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| long time...... |
[11 Dec 2004|04:59pm] |
ok well it's been a long time since my last update.......so there is not much to say except
I'M BORED LIKE A MOTHER FUVKER.......I'M STUCK AT MY FUCKING AUNTS HOUSE AND I WANT TO SHOOT MYSELF.....LITTLE CHILDREN SHOULD NOT BE ALOWED TO SPEAK.....ONLY SLEEP AND TAKE IN AIR.......THATS IT....NOTHING ELSE......DAMN THEM ALL TO HELL.......AND NOT JUST HELL.....THE FAR BOWELS OF HELL......THE DEEPEST PART IN THE SMALLEST CORNER......DAMN THEM ALL
~JESUS~
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[30 Nov 2004|03:02pm] |
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FUCK........FUCK IT ALL I HATE LIFE AND NOW I'M SURE IT HATES ME......SO FUCK IT ALL
~STUPID FUCK~
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| a brief synopsis since wednesday |
[26 Nov 2004|08:51pm] |
well i will start with wednesday.........went to school BORING.......then i came home and got ready and went to the spongebob movie with <3Amanda Deanna Paul Chris Sam and some other people i didn't really know.....it was good funny at times and i saw a lil bit more of david hasslehoff then i ever wanted to.....then me amanda deanna paul and sam went to pauls house for a couple hours.....hide and seek and the random jokes and riddles.....so much fun......(if any of them are reading...we gotta do that again) so yesterday was turkey day and i ate a 5 course meal and pigged my fat ass out.....then my cousin andrew slept over....he found my lost wallet....i have money now.....then today i woke up late and went outside and did some yard work......then we watched some episodes of snl's celebrity jeopardy....i love that skit.....now i'm going to almost sleep......
i see into your eyes and it just seems to go on forever
~Jesus Christ~
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[23 Nov 2004|08:00pm] |
slowly but surley my life is falling back into order.....and i'm really glad it is....it was a little rocky but now i can't see my life any different then it is now
~Jesus~
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[21 Nov 2004|11:31am] |
ok well last night was the best night ever.....started out with closing night of the show....tokin crazy......then we all went to katie rev's and partied it on.....musicals.....stories with a deck of cards....singing songs about piss cookies and soup in a blender.....then everyone left and only a few of us remained.....the sex book......never have i ever......pope john paul skank.....chuck fuck and marry.....so then weggie and i decided that we would go to seaside and watch the run rise cause the guys were getting booted out......so we drive up there and walk the boardwalk for like a half hour and realized that it's been raining and the sun will most likely not be comming up.....sp we leave around 5:30 and we decide to go to the nearest rest stop on the parkway cause both of our family's were not expecting us home at all so off we drive.....we pull up around 6 and pass out........then we wake up at ten....go inside get some BK....and head home......it was by far the best night ever......
I THINK I'M FALLING FOR YOU
~Jesus Christ~
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[20 Nov 2004|11:24am] |
ok last nights show was FUCKING AMAZING.............AND THEN EVEN BETTER.....WAS THE PARTY AFTERWARDS.......PENI, BOOBS, TWISTER, CROTCH LICKING, PISS COOKIES, THE LIST GOES ON.....HOLY HELL THAT WAS THE BEST
YOU ALL BETTER COME SEE THE LAST SHOW TONIGHT......8 PM SHARP
~JESUS CHRIST~
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[17 Nov 2004|03:17pm] |
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ALL THE LIVELONG DAY |
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ALL THE LIVELONG DAY
COME AND SUPPORT THE HOWELL DRAMA CLUB
WEDNESDAY THE 17 AT 7:00
THURSDAY THE 18 AT 7:00
FRIDAY THE 19 AT 8:00
SATURDAY THE 20 AT 8:00
COME AND SEE ME CAUSE I'M IN IT ALONG WITH MANY OTHER TALENTED KIDDIES
~JESUS~
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| this might be long so deal |
[14 Nov 2004|01:44am] |
ok so first off lets start with preparation for the musical........wow it deff has it's ups and downs but it is all fine and dandy........YOU ALL BETTER COME SEE "all the livelong day".....(thats the name of howell"s musical) wednesday and thursday at 7 and friday and saturday at 8.......come and support us.......
so today was good i sat around all morning till like 3 then went to the mall for an hour then went to go see the incredibles.......wow i love that movie.....it rocked....then we went to michael's brother's nephew's place for his b-day.......what a time.....jackie chan singing disney songs it's crazy.....black men rideing lawn mowers and killer brownies......it doesn't get much better.....or does it???????????
she smiles and i can't help but melt
~Jesus Christ~
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| i'm trying.....really i am |
[08 Nov 2004|02:02am] |
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Barry Manilow-Somewhere Down the Road |
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We had the right love
At the wrong time
Guess I always knew inside
I wouldn't have you for a long time
Those dreams of yours
Are shining on distant shores
And if they're calling you away
I have no right to make you stay
But somewhere down the road
Our roads are gonna cross again
It doesn't really matter when
But somewhere down the road
I know that heart of yours will come to see
That you belong with me
Sometimes goodbyes are not forever
It doesn't matter if you're gone
I still believe in us together
I understand more than you think I can
You have to go out on your own
So you can find your way back home
But somewhere down the road
Our roads are gonna cross again
It doesn't really matter when
But somewhere down the road
I know that heart of yours will come to see
That you belong with me
Letting go is just another way to say
I'll always love you so
We had the right love
At the wrong time
Maybe we've only just begun
Maybe the best is yet to come
Cause somewhere down the road
Our roads are gonna cross again
It doesn't really matter when
But somewhere down the road
I know that heart of yours will come to see
That you belong with me
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[06 Nov 2004|09:51pm] |
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ok well today started off grand.....i went to help out over at habitat for humanity.....and i have to say i had a lot of fun i was helping them put shingle's on a roof.....i really felt important.....i was helping out so one day someone could live there and maybe someday they will help and the cycle will just keep going......anyway....after that i went home and tried making plans to go to the movies with the father and clan.....but nicole got out of work late so we just stayed home and roasted marshmellows........and i turned back into my old pyro self and i had a lot of fun......i actually bonded with my dad and i have to say it was fun and i enjoyed it........so yeah my sis just went to go pick up shrek 2 so i'm gunna go watch that later so off i go.....pz out
<3 i have tried to let you go, but i find that no matter what you are always on my mind and i still love you <3
~Jesus Christ~
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[30 Oct 2004|05:16pm] |
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don't ask whats it's for it's personal just please if you read this just pick a number it means a lot to me
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